Tuesday, November 10, 2009: I am exhausted Sweetheart. You know what today is. This very day last year was my personal 9/11. It was by far the worst day of my life. I will never forget it. It started out normal with me making breakfast for everyone that morning when Maria Guadalupe Tenorio Toledano (AKA Lupita Tenorio, Marsha Tenorio) finally came out of the room with you. It was 7:05 in the morning. I already had breakfast made and you did not want to leave. I had no idea at the time you were going any where so soon because you were still in your pajamas. Maria Guadalupe walked you outside by your hand as you were trying to walk over to me. Denying you breakfast with me, your Dad. I felt something was not right with this but little did I know the unthinkable was about to happen. After taking a few minutes to get you into her car seat Maria Guadalupe drove away. Stopping in front of the house as I stood there in the window telling you to blow kisses at me and wave good bye. You did just that. You blew me kisses and waved good-bye with a big smile on your face like you were telling me you could not wait to see me when you got home. Never in a million years did I think that would be the last time I was going to see you for quite sometime.
A chill came over me this morning as I was driving to the US Consulate in Tijuana. I don’t know how I will feel tonight at 10:15. That was the time I drove up to the house. I noticed the lights were all off. It was at that point I knew something was very wrong. My heart sank into my stomach and thought I was going to faint in my truck. As soon as I put the truck in park I knew right away what Adriana Coronel Tenorio (AKA Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel) and Maria Guadalupe had done. I ran inside the house and I was not even sure if I was in the right house; screaming your name as I looked in every room to see if you were still there. Soon after it was then that I met some of the neighbors for the first time.
It would be 4-days before I would ever sleep again.
This day has been on my mind for sometime Sam. The only thing that would have made this day manageable is knowing you and I are on the right track. Together. I don’t know what to make of Adriana’s emails or actions. All’s I know is that this was a crazy year dealing with the economic recession and Adriana’s erratic behavior. Then this past year it’s been an amazing process just to restore my rights as your Dad after they were wrongfully taken away from me. That is a scary thought. One that still stresses me out on a daily basis.
Ironically, I did hear from Adriana today. She did not even acknowledge what today meant. She could care less because she relishes playing the victim all the time. None of the situations she finds herself in are ever her fault. And this is no different. She has never shown remorse or has ever said she was sorry. All she can do is still ridicule me for not paying her bills all the while not giving me time to spend with you.
That is about to change because even though today was a sad reminder of what happened a year ago, there was some good that came out of today. I was at the US Consulate today. Good meeting with the powers that be at the US State Department. It makes this day bittersweet. It has been a long day. I am exhausted and would like to say good-night and I love you sooooo much! I am going to meditate for awhile and stay in the moment with you in my heart. As always and will connect with you tomorrow. KISSES my Princess!
Dear Sir, your story brings me such renewed sadness. I was 3 1/2 years old when my mother abducted me. My dad died when I was 17, and I did not discover the truth of what had happened until I searched for his family when I was 31. You are obviously a very loving father, as now I know mine was as well. you are now in my prayers, as is your child. I encourage you to pray this scripture over your daughter and her mother: (Matt.10:26) Don’t be afraid of those who threaten you. For the time is coming when the truth WILL BE REVEALED THEIR SECRET PLOTS WILL BECOME PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE, AND (MARK. 4:22) for there is nothing hidden which will not be revealed, nor has anything been kept secret but that it shall come to light.
begin this time to ask God to help you to forgive their mother. Yes, I know she does not deserve it. But not forgiving her keeps her in power in your life. This forgiveness will take time, but it is essential for when you are re-united with your child. The last is probably the hardest… bless that woman… God’s blessings are often discipline and punishment. Either way, bless her. THESE ARE STEPS I HAVE WALKE THROUGH MYSELF. IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO TALK, PLEASE REACH ME AT michelyn0515@comcast.net. DO YOU HAVE A FACEBOOK PAGE…. it helps to get people sharing pictures and messages. I’M HERE FOR YOU.. I’M PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR CHILD. BUY BIRTHDAY CARDS, CHRISTAMS CARDS, WRITE HER LETTERS AND KEEP THEM FOR WHEN YOU ARE REUNITED WITH YOUR CHILD.
Michelle Lynn Britney
Thank you Michelle Lynn. Your story is heartbreaking. Your resolve is inspirational. We are honored by your support.