2-years, 10-months into Samantha’s abduction

Adriana Coronel Tenorio, Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel, La Mesa Prison, Mexican Independence Day

Saturday, September 10, 2011: Hi Sam. I don’t even know where to begin with what happened today. We did not spend time together today as planned. I am really sorry for that. I took a risk, which I will explain. Allegedly you have been sick all week culminating in three trips to the doctor for a virus you caught. I have been sick most of the week as well, so part of this was erring on the side of caution.

Today began earlier than normal. Adriana Coronel Tenorio (AKA Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel) suggested we try a family therapist that was recommended by one of your classmates mother’s. I agreed. It cannot hurt and it was allegedly scheduled for 9:00. Perhaps someone not tied to the legal system can help find a common ground. I was caught a little off guard when at 9:00 Adriana wanted to have breakfast before the meeting. Wouldn’t you know it the meeting was actually at 10:00. “For the greater good” I keep telling myself. The session with the therapist actually went better than expected. I was pleasantly surprised. On the other hand, I did not care for how dismissive Adriana was trying to be at how we ended up here in the first place. I realize the past is the past and forgiveness is part of the process. I get it. At what point are we allowed to express how the horrific events of the last 3+ years affected us? Wishful thinking does not cut it.

After the session, Adriana mentions again how she wants to drop the criminal case. Adriana was going to actually drop the criminal case! I couldn’t believe it. As my luck would have it, the courthouse was closed, we actually went to the court together. So we made an appointment to come back Thursday morning. From there I will surprise you at school since the following day is Mexican Independence Day. I can’t wait to see you!

Naturally I was cautious Sam. I have to be. Until today, Adriana never brought up last August when it came to my incarceration in Mexico. Allegedly she had no idea I was actually in prison. Which is a bold face lie, but that is what she said anyway. I don’t know how she did not know because I told her several times. Not to mention the court files are littered with the information. Red flag. Second, she started laughing when I told her about the conditions inside that place. Laughing? Yes, laughing. Another red flag. The conversation quickly turned to her, of course, as she tried to sell me on her neck issues once again and how the doctors allegedly wanted to rush her into surgery. Yes, the same doctors who took an oath in court and testified that there is nothing wrong with Adriana. Another red flag.

Sometimes you really have to lose something or someone in order to appreciate what you had. Maybe all the above is what is happening. Adriana sees that no matter what she throws in my way, it will not stop me from being your Dad, Sam. Perhaps seeing how much I love you made her realize that I am not going anywhere. Forgiveness and forgetting are two completely different things. No matter how much someone changes, they still have to pay the price for the bad things they have done. Its a natural rule of life. Thursday is Adriana’s last chance. We have been down this road too many times. If she backs out again, there will be no more chances. Until then, I hold out hope like I have always done.

Having said all that, I am sorry I missed our time together Sam. This was a chance I had to take today. I see a chance to end all this, its hard not to take a serious look when the opportunity presents itself. Each time, I get a closer look at what makes Adriana tick. Those lessons are invaluable. Please forgive me for this one Sam. I would not have missed our time if it was not important. I will make it up to you Thursday. I LOVE YOU PRINCESS!