5-years, 3-months, 2-days into Samantha’s abduction

Adriana Coronel Tenorio, Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel, Hollywood, Shirley Temple

Wednesday, February 12, 2014: It’s 2:53AM Sam. I guess my brain decided to go to work early today. I live a couple blocks from the ocean. Down the way we have a harbor which is pretty nice. Hollywood actually filmed scenes for movies over here. Anyway, when it’s foggy or when the marine layer is really thick, there is this fog horn that sounds off to warn boats they are close to land. It’s foggy today and the fog horn has been going off all night. I like it actually. It’s a charming piece to where I live. The fog horn is not why I am awake so early. It was just an observation.

Sam, I am trying to change how I approach this situation. I am hurting. There is no question I am hurting. You don’t have a soul if something like this does not hurt you. I have obsessed over every detail of this case since day 1. I have documented the early mornings like today and the sleepless nights. All of which happen because I have not been able to turn my brain off. It’s constantly thinking, constantly going over every detail to figure out how to end this situation peacefully.

Ever since I landed up in the hospital 4+ years ago from exhaustion, people keep telling me that I have to live my life while this is going on. I have to try and find things to be happy about. I have to do this for you. Eventually we will be together again Sam. Nobody knows when that will be. Part of me has tried to have a life as we work to figure this out. You are a big part of my life Sam. So, when I do get out and I am doing the social thing, I am always thinking of you. I think about how sad it is that I have not been able to share these moments with you as father-daughters should. I am sad that Adriana Coronel Tenorio (AKA Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel) has not figured out the toll this is taking on you or everyone around her. What is it like for all these people to wake up every day having to look over their shoulder, wondering if this is the day this finally catches up with them?

It’s sad because we could have all gotten long just fine.

A few days ago I mentioned Shirley Temple and how we would compare you to her when she was your age. I found out yesterday that Shirley Temple passed away at the age of 85. I had a few friends who knew about the comparison to you and Shirley Temple. They emailed me yesterday telling me they were thinking about you when they heard of Shirley Temple’s passing because you two look so much alike when she was your age. None of these people can believe we are still dealing with this situation after all this time. I LOVE YOU SAM!