Monday, December 8, 2008: Another Monday. 4-weeks now. I can’t believe I have not seen you in 4-weeks. I hate Monday’s. It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Then I saw your picture on the dresser and that is all that it took to get me out of bed! I have to admit I have not had the time to worry about how I feel about all this. Fighting for you has really kept me together. I feel your spirit inside my heart and that is all it takes to put a smile on my face. It’s hard knowing you are so close – yet so far. I look out the window and talk to you all the time. I am hoping one day I can hear you talking back to me once again.
Alicia called and wants to meet tomorrow afternoon. I hope there is more good news. It’s a process Sweetie. I hope you don’t think I forgot about you. I miss you more than anything in this world. People have been working very hard to resolve this. Unfortunately we may have Christmas a little late this year. I am not holding out hope that Adriana Coronel Tenorio (AKA Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel) will actually do the right thing here, let alone make sure you get to spend Christmas with me. I will make that up to you.
If there is a bit of good news, I have resumed my regular work schedule after all this time. With everything going on it took awhile to really get back to a normal routine. If anything can really be normal right now. There is so much to tell you. For the time being this is all about you. You are this amazing little force in the world! I am so sorry Sam. You don’t deserve this. It’s scary to think that someone could do this to another human being, especially someone they supposedly loved at one time. Adriana and I always used to say you were made with “love”. We knew the moment she was pregnant. It was a feeling we had and it was amazing at the time. Who knew she would turn into the mother who took you from me 4-weeks ago. My heart is broken Sam. I have not been able to kiss you good-night or hug and kiss you in the morning. I have your pictures. I kiss you good-night through the pictures. I actually did some Christmas shopping for you. I hope and pray that I can see you for the holiday. I love you Sammy with all my heart! Kisses!
