Friday, April 30, 2010: Hi Beautiful! Dad is coming! I am leaving in a couple hours actually. I cannot wait to see you. I wanted to take some time and tell you how sorry I am you are in the situation you are in. I am doing everything I can to to resolve this Sweetheart. I know you don’t understand what is really going on nor will you be able to comprehend all this for some time. I expect you to be angry. You may not know why you are angry. You have every right to be angry about this situation. I talked to Adriana Coronel Tenorio (AKA Adriana Howitt Coronel, Ari Coronel, Ari Coronel Tenorio, Ari Howitt, Ari Howitt Coronel) at length yesterday. As usual I am not sure how much of the truth I get from her, but I do understand the underlying theme. We had a discussion about your temper and aggression. I tried to explain to her that you have every right to be angry. That you may not even know why you are angry but you know that you are angry. At 3-years old, you are still too young to know how to express yourself in a way that we as parents can understand. You understand it perfectly. I wish we had the insight to understand. None the less, your feelings, no matter if they are happy, sad, frustration or anger, are all real. Don’t let anyone ever tell you what you feel is not real. Nobody can take that away from you.
As you get older you will learn how to express how yourself to help alleviate these frustrating situations. Until that happens, how can I help you express yourself and make you feel better now? It would probably help to know what has been going on these last 17+ months. It would help to understand why Dad has not been around. It’s adorable yet incredibly sad to know you are trying to understand. I know Adriana will never tell you what is really going on. Dad has not been around because of Adriana, not the rabbits in the back yard. Dad is allergic to rabbits and did get sick because of them, but I fixed that. For you. I fixed it so I can spend more time with you. I think it’s absolutely brilliant that you understand that something is not right. I am not sure you believe everything you are told by Adriana. I don’t even believe everything she tells me.
It’s obvious that you are angry over me not being there with you. I hear the stories, and even if ½ of what Adriana says is true, the commonalities are the same. I have to walk a fine line because if I tell her what I really think she will make it even more difficult for me to spend time with you. I know that from past experiences with her. She is completely incapable of understanding how her actions affect other people.
