Sunday, July 29, 2012: Yesterday, I had breakfast in San Diego. I was at an Irish restaurant with a friend. I could not help but think of you the whole time. I lost it for a while. Sometimes the emotions are hard to stop. I am not ashamed of crying Sam. Grown men should cry when it comes to their kids. You have been such an amazing influence in my life. I absolutely love being your Dad. I am sorry it’s been such a struggle to be father-daughter more. I am fighting like hell to fix this. Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. We’ll see what the next month holds Sam. I LOVE YOU!
